This is a statement i struggle with. My anxiety tends to manifest itself as a slight bit of hypochondrism. Anyone who has dealt with this knows that someone who suffers from this takes every little tick and change in their body as a terminal illness. I am so in-tune with my body that i can tell every twinge i have not felt before, every bit of fatigue that is not when it should be. It is scary and consuming really. Than a side effect of this is a bit of OCD. I must Google everything. And oddly enough, i don't Google to reassure myself. Quite the opposite. I search and search until i find the worst case scenarios. The brain tumors, the cancers, the rare and unheard of diseases i must have. If my first search shows up that what i am feeling is normal or common i keep looking.
Why do i do this you may ask? I don't know. I just can't help myself. Anyways, in case your curious i may have a brain tumor, or possibly lupus or could it be cancer? I don't know, but i am recommitting to stop googling silly things.
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I've got the same problem. Doctors say it's bad to self diagnose on the internet, but hey... better to have a few possibilities to politely suggest to your doctor during your appt? All you're doing is doing a little bit of preparation and some of the dr's research for him. Plus, better to think you have a brain tumor to find out later you have the common cold. ;)
Oh gees girls. This is for sure your doctors worst nightmare. lol Rebecca Im sorry it consumes you so much. It wouldn't be to big a deal if it didn't cause you anxiety, you have enough to be anxious about. You can always shoot me questions if you want. It has been 2 years since Iv nursed professionally but after 10 years of it its not something you loose. ;)
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