I have nothing to say but.....

I just wanted to let you all know i am still alive 8) Still planning on moving late November, and still have no actual date yet. I am blessed that i am flexible and can kinda work around what works.

I was able to send a bunch of stuff to California for a friend of Cesar's to bring down to him, which is great. It was all things i wanted, but figured it would be too hard to transport on the plane. On top of that i got a TV of overstock.com so that we can also have a TV in our room. I love watching movies and Cesar's dad watches a ton of tv so i didn't want to take TV time from him. Plus i can get a Wii fit and work out in the privacy of the bedroom.

I am getting a bit nervous about money. My husband supports both his parents and he has 2 older children from a previous relationship he also supports. Add me and Daniel to the mix it may be hard without my income. I currently still send him money on occasion, though it is usually for larger unexpected things (doctors, car problems, etc...) I have some savings, but unfortunately with the 6 trips i have made down there in the last year, it isn't what i hoped it would be. We will just have to trust God and really be frugal. (yeah i know i just said i bought a new tv....well maybe the money would have been better saved, but considering i will be doing nothing down there i need my sanity.)

I am ready.....

In November one year ago, me and my husband decided that i was going to move to Mexico to be with him. First it was in January, than March, than May...you get the idea. I kept just booking vacations, but not committing to stay. I thought i was ready, but there was just a part of me that kept saying...just a little longer. Well no more. After this trip in August, i wanted to stay more than anything. Every time i leave it hurts a little more. A little more of me is left behind in Mexico. I miss my husband. My son misses his father. Our relationship isn't what it was or should be. It is so hard to sustain a relationship over the phone. I know we will come out ahead and stronger because of our trials, but i want to talk face to face with my husband. I want to hug him and hold his hand and watch him interact with our son.

So it is set. This November. I am quitting my job and me and my son are embarking on what may be the biggest journey of our lives. I am excited. I am nervous. No set date yet. When i see a good deal i am buying the one way tickets to Mexico. I will miss my family, my friends....heck maybe even my job. But i will survive and i will thank God for every blessing that he has given me.

Dancing in the Minefields

This is a song i heard on the local Christian radio this morning. I really liked it and thought i would share. It is by Andrew Peterson


I was nineteen, you were twenty-one
The year we got engaged
Everyone said we were much too young
But we did it anyway

We bought our rings for forty each
From a pawn shop down the road
We made our vows and took the leap
Now fifteen years ago



We went dancing in the minefields
We went sailing in the storm
And it was harder than we dreamed
But I believe that's what the promise is for

"I do" are the two most famous last words
The beginning of the end
But to lose your life for another I've heard
Is a good place to begin


'Cause the only way to find your life
Is to lay your own life down
And I believe it's an easy price
For the life that we have found


And we're dancing in the minefields
We're sailing in the storm
This is harder than we dreamed
But I believe that's what the promise is for


So when I lose my way, find me
When I loose love's chains, bind me
At the end of all my faith, till the end of all my days
When I forget my name, remind me

'Cause we bear the light of the Son of Man
So there's nothing left to fear
So I'll walk with you in the shadowlands
Till the shadows disappear


'Cause he promised not to leave us
And his promises are true
So in the face of all this chaos, baby,
I can dance with you